Sixth Keychain-[Written Post]

[perplexme]

...I really need to stop isolating myself probably. All it's done so far is get me completely lost and out of the loop.

Strange things continue to happen even if I don't do anything. Maybe I just need to find another method to stop them from occuring?

I don't know...I don't know anything at the moment it seems. It was easier to understand my non-existence than this place.

Melancholy's not the right word, but it's the first to come to mind.

[[ooc: Sorrryyy, kinda dropped off the face of the earth because of school >>; Feel free to bother Roxas with whatever, he's been neglected lately. Oh, and strikes are faintly legible.]]

Comments

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

I see...

Why would Axel stop being your best friend?

[perplexme]

Yeah...plus it's hard being around most people who don't really understand. Most of them just assume I'm orphaned and homeless; how can you really go about saying you don't exist?

It's a long story really...

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

But you are here now... and we are friends, aren't we?

If you ever need to talk about it, I'll be here... friends should never fight each other. It's terrible when it comes to that.

[perplexme]

Yeah...you're right.

It...well the thing about Axel is, and the thing about Nobodies and Heartless...we can still die. In my world, Axel sacrificed himself for Sora.

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

[A smile for you, Roxas. Cheer up!]

He... sacrificed himself? But why?

[perplexme]

...really, it was so that Sora could continue on...Sora was needed to save the world. He and Axel were surrounded by Nobodies, Dusks, in Betwixt and Between and well...Axel used the last of his energy in a powerful attack to kill off the Nobodies so Sora could continue on, so Sora could save the world.

He...was so fucking stupid.

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

Oh... I'm so sorry, Roxas.

But.. but if he's here in Luceti, you should try to reconcile. I have spoken to people one day and the next day, they just... disappear.

[perplexme]

Everything just for Sora. Nothing too surprising.

I've tried. We keep fighting. Last time I talked to him, we fought, we made up, and then he left me alone on a rooftop while he just walked away.

The thing is...disappearing isn't anything out of the ordinary for us. We've both had our fair share of disappearing acts. Just...his was permanent and I don't know if I can do it again.

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

But... you can't give up! He will have to listen to you eventually, right? And I know how you feel... I don't want to go loose a best friend again.

[perplexme]

It's almost pointless. He always ends up pointing out my flaws so I point out his and we just go around in a huge circle. It shouldn't be like this, we were fine before we got here.

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

Maybe you could get someone to talk to him...

[Sigh.]

I really wish I knew how to help you, Roxas.

[perplexme]

No...it's nobody else's business and I don't want anybody else getting involved and facing the blunt end of Axel's chakrams. Besides, he'll deny it.

There are just...some things he won't tell me or answer and it's driving me crazy.

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

Oh... I hope you can patch up your differences soon.

[perplexme]

If he would just admit that he can feel things, we could.

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

Why would he deny something like that?

[perplexme]

Nobodies can't feel, remember?

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

But it is like you said... you are both 'special' Nobodies. You're not without any feelings, Roxas. I know that from just talking to you. And if he says he has no feelings, then why is he fighting with you so much?

[perplexme]

I don't even know anymore. He's being stupid.

[silviteadvocate.livejournal.com]

Maybe he'll come to realize this for himself and the both of you will be friends again.

[perplexme]

Maybe. Probably. I shouldn't dwell on it really.