Forty-Eighth Keychain-[Written]

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So let's say that someone recently showed up in this place, but they're from a time where they remember you differently. How can you tell them about how things are in the future without ruining everything? And this isn't just a "oh I moved away" sort of difference, this is something a lot bigger...like memories.

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727 days. Nearly two years, and I still don't see any signs of me going home anytime soon. Should I consider that a good thing or a bad thing? For those of you who have been here that long, what do you think?

Oh, hey. Hayner! I'm thinking since you're new here and your sense of direction stinks still, we should probably explore Luceti some more so you get familiar with it. What do you think? Later today?

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Hey. I think we need to talk.

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What do you think? I'm in our usual spot whenever you're ready.

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I'll be there in a few minutes.

[ shutting her journal to head on up there. ]

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[And he won't even answer. He's sitting up there with two ice cream bars in his hand, Neapolitan in his lap and just waiting. The kitten's at least sleeping, but Roxas is sitting a little further back away from the edge just in case.]

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[ She gets there pretty quickly, having been in their apartment when she saw his message. Xion moves over and sits down beside him without a word, though she smiles a little at the ice cream bars. She reaches over to give Nea a light scritch around the ears, hoping not to wake her. ]

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[Nea purrs lightly and it's about then that Roxas tunes in that the girl bff is sitting next to him.] Hi. [And thus there is an ice cream bar being shoved practically under Xion's nose.]

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[ a quiet laugh as she takes the ice cream. ] Hi. [ she takes a small bite from it, still petting Nea with her other hand. ]

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[Annnnd stalling a little bit while thinking how to word this.] How are you? [Om nom ice cream. And Nea is enjoying the pettings thanks.]

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... a little tired, but I'm okay. [ nice loaded question, Roxas. Though the way Xion's expression dims a little when he asks probably says a lot. ]

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Yeah...me too. [Taking another bite of his ice cream then. It's probably that look that makes him just jump right in.] ...so hey. I talked to Riku the other day. Did you know that?

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[ she shifts a little, drawing her hand away from Nea as she blinks at Roxas. gonna take a bite of her ice cream before she responds. ] That you spoke to him? No... how did it go?

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Surprisingly? It went better than most of my conversations with him, but it was really weird. Not just kind of weird, very weird.

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[ considering how poorly her own conversation with him went, Xion doesn't really react to that. ] Weird how?

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Weird in the way that he actually told me that I was right about everything? I'm not sure if I believe him...I told him I didn't believe him entirely. But he was going on about understanding it now and how he didn't before.

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[ Xion is silent for a moment, looking out over the view and taking a bit of her ice cream as she thinks. ] ... he keeps saying that, yeah. He told me he doesn't want the Keyblade anymore. [ another pause. ] I don't know exactly what he went through at home, but he has that sword now... the one he had when the Organization found out about him. It's nice if he could let the Keyblade go, but I just... [ am not ready to deal with it yet? don't totally believe him? Xion just trails off. ]

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...that's why I wanted to talk to you. I don't trust him, especially after what he said and did to you.

As for what he went through...hard to say. Naminé would know if she were here, but Sora doesn't remember. [There's a pause though as he just glances at her.] The Soul Eater thing? Really? I haven't seen him yet, I just talked to him. It's just...like I said, I'm not sure I believe him just yet. Wanted to know what you thought.

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... the thing is, I don't know if I trust him, either. I want to, but...

[ a sigh. ] Soul Eater? Is that its name? I guess that's it. [ she looks at him, biting her lip, then glances away again, ice cream temporarily forgotten. ] ... I wish he'd just give me space to think, but he keeps asking to talk to me. He seems like he feels really bad, but ... I can't just go back to the way things were before. If he could prove he was trustworthy, somehow...

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I think so. Sora would know.

Anyway...he's been asking people about betrayal and how to fix it and make up for it. Pretty sure it's because of you. [Ear scritch for Nea.] Have you told him to go away? Because I could probably tell him to go away for a while. I already told him I only trust him about seventy-five percent right now.

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He what? [ Xion did not know that. Her eyebrows knit and she looks away. When had he...? And not told her. But why would he tell her when...?

Ugh. Not even sure how to feel about that, Xion's just quiet for a moment. ] ... no, I haven't. I don't want him to go away, I just... I just wish there was an easy way to fix all of this, even though I know there's not. [ takes a bite out of her melting ice cream. ] ... I don't know anymore, Roxas. I don't know what I want, or what I really think of him.

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I think it was probably filtered from you...sorry. [Other than not really because he's pretty sure Xion needed to know. He sighs deeply and shakes his head.] Love's stupid anyway. [Ice cream is melting and so he's going to eat it while he thinks this over.]

The other part is that Riku has a heart...we don't. Wonder if he remembers that feelings are different for us. [But scooting closer because he actually feels like being sort of supportive, though there's a grunt when Nea digs claws into his leg from the movement.] Ow. I think...you just need to stop thinking about it. Sure I can't tell him just to go away for a while anyway?

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... don't apologize. I can understand why. [ she had something of her own to filter, not long ago. ] ... love's not stupid. It's just harder than I thought it would be.

[ she just licks at her dwindling ice cream quietly while she listens to him speak after that. truthfully, she's not sure her feelings are different -- jury's still out on if she has a heart -- but she doesn't say that. she smiles a little when he moves closer. ] ... I'm sure. I think he gets the idea... and if I have to, I can tell him to go away on my own. It's hard not to think about it, though. It's practically all that's on my mind, lately.

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Maybe stupid's the wrong word for it, but it's weird to think about, you know? I've seen a lot of people in love here, and I still don't exactly get it.

[You would get a hug if Roxas felt like that was necessary, just so you know. Instead, he's coddling his kitten and just listening.] He kind of does, maybe. It's not going to be easier for us though. Did you hear Sora's last announcement about the house?

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... [ Xion presses her free hand to her chest, idly. ] You know... even now, I'm not sure I get it either. It's pretty confusing.

[ oof. that. nodnod. ] Yeah. I kind of like the idea, actually, but ... I'm not sure how well it would work out right now. [ a beat. ] And I still have to meet Hayner.

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But do you want to get it? I don't know if I do.

I like the idea, but...["Axel and I both don't want you near jerkface Riku."] It might get complicated. [There's a pause though because fjkdsa Haynerrrr.] Hayner...it's complicated, too. He doesn't know about us being Nobodies.

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... I think I would, maybe. It sounds nice.

[ finishing off her ice cream now, one moment. ] ... I guess it could, but ... I think things would work out. At least, I hope they would. [ glances at him. ] ... how do you know him, anyway?

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...let me know how that goes then.

[He shrugs a little, nodding in agreement. Sure, maybe things will work out. But FJDLSA PANIC A BIT. UH.] Um...well...it's kind of a funny story. A funny and long story about what happened after I left the Organization for good.