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Fifteenth Keychain-[Written]

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Would I go home, or would I stay here? It's a legit question yes but I can see how people are having a hard time answering. Is it bad that I had an answer so quickly though? Would I rather be in a world where I'm living through someone else's body, not really living at all, where my best friend's dead and I have nothing but Sora? It's true I have answers at home.

But here...I have my own life again. Aros and I both do-like we aren't parts of Sora ~~like we're really alive.~~ I have friends here; old friends, new friends, some...weird friends even. It's enjoyable.

On the other hand, here I seem to be having problems understanding things about people. Specific people even.

Cloud told me the other day that I sound 10 years older than I look. I wonder if that's really true. I've never thought about it before, maybe he's right.

But even if I sound 10 years older that doesn't get me any closer to solving what the Malnosso are planning next or even what they're looking for by testing us. I want to keep searching, ~~but I don't think I can~~ but I need to rework some of my ideas. Maybe I'm putting too much emphasis on having to know answers instead of focusing on the little details.

It's frustrating not knowing. I don't like being confused. I don't like being kept in the dark.

It'd be easier if I could just ignore it, be like Yuffie and make snowmen or be like Fina and be almost naive but no; instead, I'm the one who can't take "I don't know" for an answer. Sometimes I hate it, sometimes I don't. I've realized I'll probably be disgusted that I just wrote all of this but nobody can read it, and that includes Nobody. Just move on.
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Um...can someone explain why a penguin gave me these flowers? And where they're from?

I'm not really enjoying the cold weather. My room's freezing. And the snow's messing up my skateboarding and my sparring. ~~I don't feel good...at all.~~

[[ooc: from this. Flonne-mun if Prinny wouldn't have delivered Roxas' flowers yet, sorry! strikes still legible but not as clear as if they weren't there]]

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Okay. But maybe you should try not to over-exert yourself for a few days just to make sure it goes away.

Mostly healed now. Just a little bit longer and I should be able to get away with not wrapping it up anymore.

So I've heard. I guess I'll just "relax" for a few days.

That's good. And you and Edward, you're back in your house now?

Easier said then done, right?

Yeah. Though I have a feeling Edward might be a little more overprotective then before now.

Edited 2009-01-23 06:30 (UTC)

Exactly.

Well can't really say that's a bad idea considering what happened.

Well, you can always come by here if you want. I have a feeling you're the only one Edward's willing me alone with, and as much as I missed him, and love him, I don't think I can keep handling him in his current mood.

I don't think that's the whole reason why.

I might stop by when I'm warmer. I'll make a point of it, in fact.

What do you think the whole reason is then?

Okay. Thanks.

Have you met Seth yet?

The werewolf kid right? Yeah, I've talked to him a bit. Said he knew you guys.

Well, he knows us. We just don't know him.

But anyway, Edward thinks he's dangerous, and I don't.

That's what we figured out. I don't think he's the type to be too dangerous, he's too cheery. Maybe Edward's paranoid.

He is. Actually, he seems to have something against werewolves in general.

...theoretically that makes sense. Vampires and werewolves, natural enemies. But Seth didn't seem to have a problem with Edward so maybe it's just an old philosophy in the Cullen family?

Maybe. I'm still trying to get all the information out of him, but he keeps saying that werewolves are dangerous and that I should stay away from them. Though I really don't think Seth is dangerous.

Seth seems about as dangerous as a newborn kitten. Edward's just overprotective I'm going to guess, especially after what happened with that girl-vampire.

He's always overprotective.

Is that really such a bad thing though?

I guess not, but it gets annoying sometimes.

At least you never have to second-guess his feelings?

And yet I still manage to sometimes.

How so?

Well, I know that he loves me, but at the same time, I can't help but think "Why me? What's so special about me? What do I have that could ever hold him to me?"

I can't help those thoughts though, because I can't help but feel he's too good for me.

...that's really interesting because he seems to feel the same way about you. That you're too good for him I mean.

I know he does, but I still think he's wrong about that.

Personally I think you're both wrong. I don't know a lot about the subject of love but thinking of how hard it is for two people to be close enough to even consider calling it love and then seeing you and Edward, I think you've both managed fairly well. You belong together and all of that stuff, like Romeo and Juliet. Starcross-lovers but so fitting.

That's...an interesting way to put it.

Edited 2009-01-23 08:04 (UTC)

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